Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Sometimes

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't who I am. Sometimes, I wish I were different, normal. I especially feel this in drama - seeing all these active people around me, talking, enjoying each other's company, as I wander around and wait for something to happen. I mean, how hard is it to strike up a conversation with someone you vaguely know? Sometimes, I wish that I was as down to earth and sociable as these people, and not so eccentric, abstract and introverted.

And sometimes I am. Sometimes I can smoothly go from conversation to conversation, being extroverted, sociable, and it's an enjoyable experience. But then, something funny happens - I see an eccentric person and think "Man, that guy is awesome. I wish I was more quirky." You hear about people like Tesla, and Edison - not very high in the charisma department, but still humorous people. I begin remembering intellectuals who led fascinating lives, and I want to experience that. Sometimes I wish that I was as eccentric, abstract and introverted as these people, and not so down to earth and sociable.

I imagine this is why I'm so good at acting. I can put myself in peoples shoes so well, because I, at some point, have been them. In the odd case that I haven't, I simply form connections and make an educated guess at how they feel/react. I'm rarely off. Sometimes, it's nice to be someone else.

Everything in moderation, including moderation.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Continued NYR

I'll start with Get More Hygiene.

No, I am not that disgusting! I'm just absent minded is all. I need to remember to do things, and some of those things are showering and brushing my teeth. I need to keep them regular, not all over the place. you know, a sche- never mind... I'm just digging myself a hole.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

A quick update from yours truly

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
Read or write at least 1 hour a day.
Manage my time better.
Work on my social abilities.
Go to church every week.
Pray more.
Get more hygiene.

I may expound on these one by one at a later date.