Day 7: Favorite movies

Oh geez.

Schindler's List
Hotel Rwanda
Gran Torino - good character development
The Court Jester
Shawshank Redemption
Road To Perdition
Waking Life
the Matrix
THE PRINCESS BRIDE
M by Fritz Lang

Those are notable ones.

Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy

LOLOLLOLOOLLOLOLOLOLOLO WALRUS.

Day 5: A song to match your mood

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsvZuNuKPac&feature=mr_meh&list=FLBPBaGe9sp_U&index=16&playnext=0

Trying to get onto solid emotional footing. Hurray girl drama.

Day 4: Your parents

Mark Wagner, Lead Pastor

Mark Wagner is the lead pastor at Westsong. He is a fourth generation pastor with the Salvation Army. He holds the rank of Major.

Through years of study (BTh, BA, MA, MDiv, STM, DMin) he has developed a passion for helping people understand what the Bible is saying and what it has to do with us! He is committed to planting and pastoring new, vibrant churches for the 21st century.

In his spare time, he enjoys hiking the coastal trails of Vancouver Island, making music and dabbling in technology.



Isobel Wagner, Discipleship Pastor
Isobel Wagner, who holds the rank of Major in the Salvation Army, is the discipleship pastor at Westsong. She spent many years in training (BA, BRE, MTS), and has a special interest in nurturing people through HOME groups and mentoring. With Mark she has reared five wonderful kids--Lynn, Marci, Trav, Vangi and Wesley. Isobel also coordinates the CLASSes that people attend as they first come to our church and continue to grow in their faith. These CLASSes (acronym: Christian Life and Service Seminars) enable us to be driven by the five purposes that God designed for the church.


My father tested as ENTJ. My mother originally tested INTJ, when she was younger, but now tests ISFJ. My siblings are Lynn (dunno, maybe IXFX), Marci (INTJ), Travis (ISFJ), Vangi (ENFP), and myself, INTP.

I don't really like my father. He's very in control of his household, which occasionally gets to be a bit much. I don't like how dominating he is, especially in regards to my mother. It's practically a 50's relationship.
My mom is a sweetheart, almost to a fault. I don't know how else to describe her, really.

Day 3: Your first love

Mmmph. This one caused me some trouble. What defines first love? My first big crush? My first almost relationship? My first actual relationship?

I had a crush on Kate for a year and a half, through grade 8 to grade 9. She sat next to me in science, and as I talked to her I started liking her, blahblahblah, she met another guy. Eh.

Christia, so far, is the only girl to have actually stopped my heart. we were in socials and I looked over and saw her throwing her hair back and THUMP. My heart stopped beating for half a second. Adrenaline hit me hard and the pain was swallowed... just wow. Same as Kate though, she started liking another guy, and asked us to just be friends. NOT TWO MONTHS LATER SHE LIKED ME. Damnit woman, right after I friend zoned her! ah well. She still kind of likes me.. which is pretty good seeing as it's been 3 years.

Rachel was my first girlfriend. It was almost perfect, the way we grew together in 2 months then started dating... however, it became long distance, and in the weekend we managed to get together, she spun on a dime, distanced me throughout the weekend and then broke up with me. Ow. Ow ow ow ow ow ow. I still have intimacy issues from that.

Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name

Ripped off www.xkcd.com

no biggie.

Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts

Oh hello there, blog watcher! My name is Wesley, and I'm bored. Hence, CHALLENGES. Need to fight stagnation.

INTP = a Myer Briggs type

Ti = Introverted Thinking

LARP = Live Action Role Play

ADHD = Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder

harf barf narf = ipso facto

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1) My 'type' is INTP. Some days I like it, some days I don't.

2) On the days I don't, I have acting to help me deal with it. I'm hoping to continue with acting as a career.

3) I was raised a Christian, in the Salvation Army. I'm a pastor's brat. Not quite sure where I stand at this point.

4) I like Fedoras, and clothes that flap in the wind.

5) I'm a speed reader. I've been reading at a university level since Grade 1. I don't remember if I understood what I was reading, but I could read it.

6) I do LARPing in my spare time. I'm a battlemage, which means I'm a either a brave caster or a cowardly soldier. I use the fighting part to get over some issues I have with being hit.

7) I'm /very/ Ti, especially when I'm uncomfortable. If something happens and it's outside my social parameters, I shut down until I figure out what the hell is going on.

8) I was diagnosed with ADHD. The meds were useful for getting things done, but I feel more alive when I'm off them. In the past month I've gone from 90% to 60% in Math, because I stopped wanting to do it.

9) I hate tradition. I want to be able to form my own opinions.

10) On the above note, never try to force me to do anything, because I'll resist. I don't care how childish it is, let me make my own decisions.

11) If you want to make me do something, give me solid, logical reasons. Even if I'm opposed to it, eventually I have to follow my brain.

12) I'm perhaps one of the most sane people in the group I associate myself with. It's kinda strange, because I've always felt like an outsider, struggling with certain issues, but suddenly I'm the normal one. Funny how that works.

13) I have more pansexual and bisexual best friends than I do heterosexual. They tend to be more interesting.

14) I'm extremely open, and constantly pushing my boundaries. If you ask, I will answer. Fair be warned.

15) Harf barf narf.

30 day challenge!

Day 0: The 30 Day Challenge Explanation and Description
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A place you’ve traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 10: Something you’re afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don’t leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you’re looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME Why?
Day 22: What’s in your purse?
Day 23: Favorite Movie
Day 24: Something you’ve learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge

Something I ranted yesterday

Why is the sky so fucking beautiful

It looks like God took a paintbrush and a thousand years to make a single sunset

and he poured out his soul into the northern lights

and as the sun reflects it’s light off of water and through clouds sometimes I could honestly cry

My favourite, though, is when the sun is shining brightly behind you

with storm clouds in front

so that the purple of the storm clouds and the bright green of the grass pulse radiantly in your eyes

About that emo post

I went and talked with my friend about it, and we eventually came to a good conclusion. I'm actually extremely satisfied with it. I had been projecting a lot of insecurity, and I just needed to face it. I always lose friends. Always. And I didn't want to lose her. So all of this came to a head, and I admitted it to her. She helped me get my head together, and, well, yeah. Giant load off my back.

Here was the original post.

"Today, I let myself introspect. I've been pushing my emotions down, trying to find a good time to deal with them, but it's getting harder. So I tried to let some of it out... and am now in more than moderate pain. I met a girl just over a year ago now, and she really was something else. We considered dating, but it never worked out and this is what I keep coming back to. What if I had said yes. Can I still say yes? Have I blown my chance with this incredible girl forever? I told her at the time that we should wait, and I really did mean I wanted to wait. I was willing to wait for as long as I needed to. but she thought I meant we should forever remain friends and so distanced herself... I still love her with every bone in my body, and if I never get another chance to be something more than a friend than I still consider myself extremely blessed, but...

Things used to be a lot harder in her life, and even though I tried with all my strength to help I would wind up drained and exhausted. Now, though, things are better and I've waited.....

This post feels like a mistake. It feels like something I should type out and then erase. Maybe I'll just email it to myself and hold it for when we're older and wiser, and maybe then I'll be able to look at this, and delete it. But for now, I don't have the strength. It hurts so badly."

Sigh.

This post has been cut and is being held elsewhere. Too much emo for the internets. Have a good day.